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Mar 11, 2009 8:24:48 GMT -5
Post by jaydjasmyn on Mar 11, 2009 8:24:48 GMT -5
Ladorak wasn't entirely negative but at the same time he wasn't as enthusiastic about having kits as she would have liked. Jayd was now caught between a rock and a hard place. Should she tell him or should she keep it a secret for a little while longer? It would be likely that she'd be sick in the morning again. How much longer could she keep it to herself?
The femme stopped undressing him and laid back down at his side, stroking his headfur with one paw while propping her head up with the other, elbow firmly pressed into the mattress. Lad's final thought was in a question form. Jayd smiled up at him. Really she opened a can of worms and she made up her mind to just tell him.
Again she got up, sitting indian style next to him, she was clearly restless. "Ladorak. I'm pregnant." Her eyes searched him quickly for a reaction but she felt the need to give him a way out of this situation if he did not want to be in it. "But... If you don't want kits right now I'll understand. I can raise him or her by myself." She knew in her heart that she wanted this child and even though it was a surprise she could not deny the miracle.
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Mar 11, 2009 10:20:53 GMT -5
Post by Ladorak on Mar 11, 2009 10:20:53 GMT -5
For a moment Ladorak said nothing. His drink hovered midway between his lips and the table. So....she was then.....Ladorak had suspected as much, given how sick she had been feeling. But how could she be positive? Then again....illness normally didn't last weeks as it had done with her. It was true.
"I figured there was a good chance you were." he said, finishing the last of his drink off in one long, sour gulp. Placing the glass down on the table, he looked at her, the sweat pouring down his face. Damn fever...."But don't.....raise it on your own. I think....I think you misunderstand my reservations." the ermine explained, trying to clear his head so that he could answer her clearly.
"You see....it's not that I don't want to....I DO believe me....more than anything....it's just I have reservations about my own capacity as a father. When I swore my oath to the King, I never really.....foresaw myself as becoming involved with another again and well....it has....and so I'm not sure I'd make a good father. I might have to be away from home a lot, and that might even chalk up to more than a year depending on the need. I wouldn't want to.....raise a kit that way. It's not you......it's me and my ability that I doubt. It makes me....admittedly nervous you know," to say nothing of what King Poynt would think of him if he fathered an illegitimate child....but then again that would lead in to something that Ladorak had been pondering anyways. "It's just the fact that I've never done it before. With Caden it's different because he's old enough to serve in the Navy, and I could be there to present a guiding paw to him....but with a newborn well.....only if YOU think I'm capable of being that good parent. I can't make the promise that I will be......I do have to earn a living of course, even more so if I'm supporting more than one mouth.....which I plan to. I'm given 100 pounds a year when I'm not on active duty."
He stopped, pausing as a wave of nausea swept over him, then subsided. "Oh..." he sighed, his stomach settling back into it's place. "Oh yes.....100 pounds a year well.....I don't have to tell you that's tight. If it were just us two we'd be able to live reasonably, but with Caden and possibly another one well...you get the idea. I'll make excellent pay when I'm serving on the ocean however, and would more than be able to support a family. My father sends me an allowance of 100 pounds a year as well, and I'm not sure how much you have....but perhaps until I get back out to sea we should pool our finances. I make 200 a year, and couple that with what you have well.....I just might have to cut back this year. But i can do it."
He blinked, letting his eyes linger closed as he composed what he wanted to say. "So the point I'm trying to make is......I'll have to work.....I'll have to serve my country, to whatever end that may be, and I'll be able to support a family if I do. As it stands right now it'll be tight.....but we should be able to get by if both work. I'm sorry....to ask you to do that.....once I get active duty you won't have to work, I promise you that. Pay is excellent at my rank." He explained. "So yes...those are my reservations....but if you think I can do it....if you think I can be a good father despite what I do for a living....then.....I'll say yes. Because either way.....I'd love to try." he said, his eyes misting up a bit at the thought. Wow.....was this really happening? It wasn't some delirious dream from his fever? No.....it was reality. And he had said what he needed to say. All of it. He lacked confidence in himself but.....if she thought this could truly work....he would be more than willing to do it.
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Mar 11, 2009 10:38:41 GMT -5
Post by jaydjasmyn on Mar 11, 2009 10:38:41 GMT -5
Well that went better then Jayd had anticipated. She would give Ladorak a few moments to think things over in his mind while she obtained another drink for him, hoping that she wouldn't run into the weasel on the way out or back in. She took the glass from his paw and crawled lightly over him. "Here.... I'll be right back. I'll get you another." Jayd padded gracefully to the door and then disappeared behind it.
Hurriedly the femme mixed up another drink for Lad and one for herself, a virgin one of course, but Lad wouldn't know that. She also took a minute to mix up a full picture for Lad so that he would have drinks through out the night. Thoughtfully Jayd also brought back with her another picture of cold water and a rag to drape over his forehead. She carried all of this upon a nice sturdy wooden tray.
Jayd re-entered the room, smiling a bit as she did so. Indeed she was positively glowing. Behind her she closed the door with her one bare footpaws and then sat the tray on the night stand next to Ladorak. "I checked on Caden. He's out like a light. A big day can do that to a kit." Jayd got busy, pawing his drink to him and then to place the chilled towel on his head, all the while speaking with him. "I'm so happy to hear that you are willing to try. It will all work out. You'll see." The fae smiled down at him.
After tending to him she managed to crawl back into bed. It felt so good to rest next to the male that she loved. Tenderly she pressed the towel into his forehead. "I love you Ladorak. And don't worry. I'll work until I give birth. I'm strong and able and as long as the pregnancy goes well I'll be fit as a fiddle to bring in some money as well. Besides... It will be good for me to stay busy." Jayd then leaned over Lad and picked her drink up to give it a sip.
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Mar 11, 2009 10:52:52 GMT -5
Post by Ladorak on Mar 11, 2009 10:52:52 GMT -5
He didn't want her waiting on him like this, but before he could protest she had already left. Oh well.....best just let her get him another drink. The quinine would do him good. She returned presently, bearing a tray with a pitcher and some drinks. Oh dear....looked as if he'd get his dose of quinine for the night alright.
Ladorak smiled at the mention of Caden, and responded with a "I certainly hope so" to her promise of having things turning out right. How he hated being sick.....but his forehead was soon soothed by a wet towel, and he gratefully accepted it. "Thank you...you didn't have to." he said, expelling a long breath from his lungs.
"Yeah...I hate to have you do it though. I'm sure you'd rather kick back with a kit or two while I send in the paychecks....but still. Guess it can't be helped. I promise it won't be that way for long. I'll lobby and push and prod as much as I can to get back to work. The only problem is about me and 25 others are looking for ship commands, and in peace time it's just not likely to happen."
He took his drink and began taking sips, beginning to feel better now that the quinine was working throughout his system and battling the parasites that were hitching a ride on his red blood cells. "So...." he shifted to face her. "You really want to....go through with this then? I can't....promise you supreme happiness right away....but I can at least promise to be there until I start working...and whenever I get leave we'll be able to do lots of good things.....because we'll be able to afford it." he said, chuckling softly and taking another drink. "Times can only get better I think."
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Mar 11, 2009 11:07:24 GMT -5
Post by jaydjasmyn on Mar 11, 2009 11:07:24 GMT -5
Jayd giggled. Lad was a modest creature and clearly he didn't like others waiting on him but Jayd would hear nothing of it. She wanted to be of assistance to him, after all she was in love with him and right now he was sick.
Gently Jayd replaced his chilled towel with a new one as they continued to converse. "I know that this will work and yes I want to go through with it. I could never give up something that we created together. And don't worry so much about work. I'm sure that they will see that you would make the most appropriate choice for a new command." Jayd had good instincts about such things. With every fiber of her being she knew that things would work out.
Tenderly she felt his cheek with the back of her paw. His fever was coming down. Her cool applications were working. Now she could lay back and relax a bit more. As she did so she softly laughed, feeling her lower tummy. "I didn't really realize that I was pregnant until you told me to not drink anymore wine. It was then that I knew. I remember my mother having morning sickness when she was pregnant." Her paw ran soft circles on her stomach. "I'm just hoping that today was the last of being sick in the morning. It takes alot out of me." Jayd took in a deep breath and let out a sigh of relief. A large weight was off of her shoulders now and everything was out in the open.
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Mar 11, 2009 11:50:00 GMT -5
Post by Ladorak on Mar 11, 2009 11:50:00 GMT -5
"Yeah....I should get better as soon as I can to make sure that we're both not in bed heheh." He joked, nodding at her statement. "I only wish....you were right...." Ladorak said, smiling to himself as he thought about King Poynt's son....the Crown Prince.
"You see...I'm not sure I'm very high up on the list for getting a command. Sure....if a war breaks out everyone gets a job but I....ended up....befriended the Crown Prince, and well....he's....not the straightest of arrows." He couldn't help but chuckle, something he quickly stiffed. "I'm sorry, it's not THAT funny. He.....well he seems to get himself into on scandal after another. He was placed on my ship to learn how to sail and how to fight and well...I sort of took him under my wing. But he was a wild card...rebellious against his father. I remember....."
Ladorak laughed again, clearly enjoying these reminiscences. "He would always throw wild parties every time we got into port, and he would USUALLY end up seducing nearly female mustelid he could get his paws on in town.....I guess being that young makes you...um......can't even think of the word, but he didn't slow until morning." Ladorak was chortling now, snorting a bit as he did so. "Oh jeez...when his father found out...he was FURIOUS. He blamed his son of course....but also me for 'improperly raising him' even though that wasn't really my job. My job was to just show him the ropes....his own personal life was really up to him and well...maybe I DID encourage him to adopt an independent mind but...I most certainly didn't mean it like that!" he exclaimed, his eyes lighting up a bit as he gave off another short laugh.
"Hah! I.....yeah....so needless to say...the King isn't exactly....ingratiated with me. He.....seems to place part of the blame on me because I'm still friends with the Crown Prince. So....I guess he sees me as a bad influence or something. I'll have to....work to regain his trust." Ladorak said, growing serious again. "At least Admiral Hood is still on my side though...." Ladorak stated with a far off look. "So yeah, that's my situation with the Royal Family and the Navy." the ermine stated, giving her a broad smile as he thought of all the mischief he'd gotten into with the Crown Prince way back when.
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Mar 12, 2009 10:11:22 GMT -5
Post by jaydjasmyn on Mar 12, 2009 10:11:22 GMT -5
Jayd really was listening to what Ladorak was saying as she continued to stroke her belly. Inwardly she was very excited to be pregnant. She only wished that Ladorak could share in her enthusiasm. The one thing that she did not want to do was to cause him to feel trapped but then again he should have known what he was doing when he joined intimately with her. This kit was both of their responsibilities and even though Jayd was willing to raise it alone Ladorak gracefully stepped in. He told her his situation but Jayd didn't seem to mind the fact that they would have to pinch their pennies. The femme was a thrifty stoat-tess, having many times had to survive on potatoes alone.
Once Lad was finished the fae turned to him, her face radiating a smile that could light up an entire ball room. "It sounds like you've had some good times in your new home so far. Now that we are together things can only get better." She leaned over and replaced his wet towel. Upon doing that she again felt his face. It seemed like his body was winning the battle over his sickness. "Well at least now I know what to do the next time that you are sick." Jayd was learning every day. This new lot in life afforded her to grow in wisdom and she loved to learn.
Jayd took another drought of her drink, the very drink that Lad didn't even attempt to take from her. She wondered if he knew that it was a virgin drink. Either way the fem was enjoying it very much. Now that she's pregnant she'll have to think more about what she's eating rather then shoving anything into her mouth. Surely Ladorak would help her with that.
There were so many things to think about now. Like what would happen once they got back home. "Ladorak? Once we get back home... Do you still wish for me to live in my little apartment?" Tenderly she smiled up at him knowing that if he wished that she would be sad because truthfully she didn't know how she would go one night without him laying next to her, keeping her warm with his wonderful body. "And what about Caden? I'm assuming that he will have a room of his own. Right?" Wonderful things to think about...
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Mar 12, 2009 10:30:36 GMT -5
Post by Ladorak on Mar 12, 2009 10:30:36 GMT -5
The quinine was helping, he could tell. He still felt sick, and it would probably be a few days before he was fully back on his paws, but he knew that a steady dose of gin and tonics would keep him healthy for as long as took them until the disease went back into remission. "Oh...." He said, thinking about the apartment. "Well I was renting to you....but perhaps we could rent it out to somebeast else, and use that income for ourselves as well. We could eventually have that wall knocked down as well...but I doubt I have the money for that right now." He said, yawning deeply and sighing as he relaxed back into the bed.
Stupid fever....it made his head swim from time to time. It felt like a mild flu really, but it wasn't contagious. "Hmm...I'd like you to move in with me....I could show you around my side of the house." he said, giving her another tired, weak smile. His whiskers were drooping, "And yes....Caden would have his own room. That house.....it was built for a big family, but I never had much use for that sort of thing.....I've always been alone." it sounded as if Ladorak's voice was distant, detached, and it was probably because he was still battling to stay awake and not succumb to exhaustion and his fever. He finished his second glass and decided to take a rest at number two. Too much gin would give him a hangover in the morning and probably make his symptoms worse.
"And yes.....next time.....gin and tonic should be the first thing." he said, his voice getting even softer. Finally opening his eyes, he was able to look at her again, giving her another one of his soft smiles. He appeared a little dopey now though, probably because of the gin, and with a sleepy, silly smile, he leaned in and gave her a firm kiss on her snout and then pulled back. With his thick, fluffy (and wet) winter coat and that goofy look on his face he must have cut a funny if not cute character, but of course had he known this he probably would've tried to appear normal as soon as possible.
"So....anything else you'd like to discuss?" he asked, sinking a bit more comfortably into his pillow. The combination of quinine and gin was an odd one. The quinine was alleviating his symptoms, and the gin well, had an slightly inebriating effect on him. Couple that with a fever, and Ladorak was become one silly stoat. He was still fairly coherent for the most part though, and wasn't ready to pass out just yet.
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Mar 12, 2009 11:13:05 GMT -5
Post by jaydjasmyn on Mar 12, 2009 11:13:05 GMT -5
Indeed Jayd noticed that he was becoming rather goofy, but cute. The femme laughed, especially so when he gave her a firm kiss upon the lips. She liked this side of Ladorak. Jayd would remember these moments and perhaps once he was better she would give him a few gin and tonics to... well... to have a joyous time with. Thoughts of times ahead gave Jayd a renewed strength.
"So....anything else you'd like to discuss?" Jayd shook her head no as she ran a caring paw over his face that then down his chest where it came to a rest. "No... Nothing else my love. I think that you should go to sleep now. You need your rest so that your body can fight back the sickness. I need for you to be healthy." Besides the fact that she wanted him healthy Jayd hated to see him in such a weakened condition. Sickness made a beast vulnerable.
Affectionately the femme snuggled into him and then allowed her head to sink into the pillow, her warm breath would wave across his face now. Her eyes to grew heavy as did her body. Thoughts of being sick in the morning swam around in her head. Sincerely she hoped that she wasn't sick again tomorrow. Morning sickness made her feel so helpless and hopeless but at least now she positively knew what was causing it.
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Mar 12, 2009 23:13:30 GMT -5
Post by Ladorak on Mar 12, 2009 23:13:30 GMT -5
Ladorak too was looking forward to the future, but he was exhausted at this point, and after nodding and murmuring an "OK....that's...good...." He drifted off into a rather pleasant sleep, that dopey smile still on his face. He was certain that now things would improve....they'd find a way to make it financially.....and Caden.....was safe....that was the last thought that went through Ladorak's mind as he fell into a restful if still somewhat fevered sleep.
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